about love.

#find someone who does not love you only when you're young,

but rather stays with you until you both grow grey and old.

the downside of an army wife.

i am so frustrated. when he said he needs to work again this saturday. when he said that, i was lost. actually i wanted to shout, it just i couldn't.

i was so devastated enough, that last week when i was sick he couldn't come back. he was on duty the whole week. and i was picking every strength that i had to manage myself alone, to go to the clinic every day. i was always wanted to wish he will be around, but i know he couldn't.

i wish i can win over military system.

but here i am, just a wife who is trying to manage most of her time alone.

this time i DON'T WANT to understand military.

because you never give me a solid reason why i always to sacrifice my heart for you, military.

people always see how soldier have sacrifice themselves for the country.

but often they forget, behind those soldier.. they are some people who makes a lot of sacrifice too.. without being known, without being acknowledged.

Sabarlah dalam bersabar...

As salam alaik..
Rasanya macam da agak lama tak berkongsi sesuatu di sini. Ada juga kawan-kawan yg bertanyakan pelbagai soalan tapi semuanya masih on hold. Kebelakangan agak sibuk kerana dah hampir kepada penghujung semester jadi masa lapang tanpa lecture banyak diganti dengan siapkan assessment dan juga replacement class. Hee masa kawen haritu lama jugak bercuti sekarang siapla nak gantikan kelas. :p

Anyway i want to share with you about patience. Bukan senang nak bersabar. Tak kira dalam apa jua situasi yg kita hadapi. Contohnya military partner.. Kadang-kadang susah kita nak terima yang partner kita tak macam orang lain.
By 'org lain ', i mean the civilian. Kadang-kadang perkara yg kita dah plan terpaksa di cancel di saat akhir. Kalau yang nak berkawen tu, semua terpaksa urus sendiri sebab tunang kita tak ade masa untuk entertain the wedding preparation. Bagi yg da berkawen, makan hati bila tiba-tiba suami bg tahu tak dapat pulang sebab duty or ada event.
Semua perkara-perkara yg boleh menimbulkan rasa kecewa, sedih dan tertekan.
However, this is the price that we have to pay for loving a soldier. The military system will always come in between. And you know well enough who will win.
So..be patient..keep holding on.
Remember that you're not alone. :)

Save the Date!~ :: Teaser from Photographer

just got the teaser for our wedding photos.. can't wait to see the rest, especially the night capturer mode. :)

Officially a wife. - 3 weeks.

alhamdulillah.

2 september 2011 bersamaan 4 syawal, bergelar isteri kepada mohd najib bin muhamad nasir.

syukur alhamdulillah...

as the time passed by..

tinggal beberapa hari je lagi sebelum bergelar isteri orang.

tak tau lah apa perasaan, risau pun ada bila fikir mampu ke melaksanakan tanggungjawab dengan baik.

ramai yang bertanya mengenai preparation, honestly takde banyak benda untuk difikirkan kerana majlis pun simple-simple saja. dok fikir sekarang just nak balik dan lepak2 dengan family and sedara mara. :)

my aim, is to gather all family members and close friends on our blessing day. itu yang paling diutamakan.

bila dikira-kira, banyak jugak berhabisan untuk ke arah perkahwinan ni. sedangkan buat simple2 je tu. tak boleh bayangkan macam mana orang lain yg buat bermacam2 lagi, berapa banyak ye yang habis.

hee mungkin sebab semua guna own expenses kot, tu yang rasa gitu. hehe. segan nak menyusahkan keluarga lagi, dah besar panjang dah bekerja kan. cukup-cukup la parents banyak spend sejak kecik sampai la dapat degree ni.

masa awal create blog ni saya ada cakap this side of wedding simple je, takde sword barrel ape sume. tapi in the end, setelah buat family discussion, bakal suami cakap sword barrel tetap ada untuk wedding ni.

jadi kelam kabut la reserve kan baju untuk sword barrel. from the same place that i booked my makeup.

yea, pergi 1 tempat je. takde pegi survey butik lain. *haa peliknya bakal pengantin ni...*

i cant believe my self that im not fussy at all on choosing for my wedding dress, sedangkan kebiasaannya nak beli baju pun agak cerewet. :p

siap berat badan naik 2,3kg tau sepanjang ramadhan. haa pastu mula risau tak muat nak pakai solemnization attire!

agaknya sebab bahagia kot dah nak jadi isteri kepada orang yang disayangi..hehe.. *eeee ape jiwang2 ni bulan puasa nihhh*

okay i better stop now. haha.

the insight of workstation~

our 'save the date' in real. :)

my cubicle of work.

Puan Nor farihan azizan. (-_-")

bila masa ntah ketua jabatan saya meletak tanda nama ni, sedar-sedar je dah ada. 'Puan' dah hehhh.

saya malu laaaaa.... :p