salam.
hi. every married man and woman would have always want this.
get conceived.
to hold your own baby in your arm... nothing can compare.
lucky couple would have gotten conceived first few months after getting married. the rest would need to wait for the right time.
being married made me realize through out my life i actually have control on most of the thing. and being pregnant is one of the thing that not in my control. its all God's plan.
after a year of marriage, my spouse and I have been bombarded with many questions of the same meaning.
-- when we will be pregnant.?
some can be cruel by saying things that would indicate something is wrong with us, and start suggesting things to eat.
while the others will try to soothe by saying "nanti2 ade la rezeki".
after a while, i start to be numb. showing no interest of other people's pregnancy.
and only show my true emotion to my dear husband. and because of that, some people thinks that im okay for not having baby.
so much so we want to get conceived, we also need to be realistic.
we're on long distance marriage. and trust me, long distance marriage to a military man is nothing similar to other government servant.
and i can't simply quit my career to live with my husband, as i have my own financial commitment.
even though i realize its all about finding the right time, (after getting married, i have mastered the period cycle and such) i start to feel anxious too. is something wrong with me?
and we took major decision in our life. decision that i believe majority of the couples would not dare to go through.
what is it?
im going to share with you, if only its needed.
if only this would help married woman with same situation with me would want to know.
note: this is a topic that most of us would not want people to know.
however, i share my feeling as i want u to know, that if u're in the same situation as i am... you're not alone.
