the downside of an army wife.

i am so frustrated. when he said he needs to work again this saturday. when he said that, i was lost. actually i wanted to shout, it just i couldn't.

i was so devastated enough, that last week when i was sick he couldn't come back. he was on duty the whole week. and i was picking every strength that i had to manage myself alone, to go to the clinic every day. i was always wanted to wish he will be around, but i know he couldn't.

i wish i can win over military system.

but here i am, just a wife who is trying to manage most of her time alone.

this time i DON'T WANT to understand military.

because you never give me a solid reason why i always to sacrifice my heart for you, military.

people always see how soldier have sacrifice themselves for the country.

but often they forget, behind those soldier.. they are some people who makes a lot of sacrifice too.. without being known, without being acknowledged.

Sabarlah dalam bersabar...

As salam alaik..
Rasanya macam da agak lama tak berkongsi sesuatu di sini. Ada juga kawan-kawan yg bertanyakan pelbagai soalan tapi semuanya masih on hold. Kebelakangan agak sibuk kerana dah hampir kepada penghujung semester jadi masa lapang tanpa lecture banyak diganti dengan siapkan assessment dan juga replacement class. Hee masa kawen haritu lama jugak bercuti sekarang siapla nak gantikan kelas. :p

Anyway i want to share with you about patience. Bukan senang nak bersabar. Tak kira dalam apa jua situasi yg kita hadapi. Contohnya military partner.. Kadang-kadang susah kita nak terima yang partner kita tak macam orang lain.
By 'org lain ', i mean the civilian. Kadang-kadang perkara yg kita dah plan terpaksa di cancel di saat akhir. Kalau yang nak berkawen tu, semua terpaksa urus sendiri sebab tunang kita tak ade masa untuk entertain the wedding preparation. Bagi yg da berkawen, makan hati bila tiba-tiba suami bg tahu tak dapat pulang sebab duty or ada event.
Semua perkara-perkara yg boleh menimbulkan rasa kecewa, sedih dan tertekan.
However, this is the price that we have to pay for loving a soldier. The military system will always come in between. And you know well enough who will win.
So..be patient..keep holding on.
Remember that you're not alone. :)